As of Now explores the idea of absence through the relationship between light and shadow. At first glance, shadows appear simple; they seem to function merely as silhouettes cast by nearby objects. Closer examination reveals a more complex relationship between presence and absence. A shadow signals that something exists, but it also withholds the object itself. The image becomes elusive, suggesting the subject is just beyond reach. When observing the shadow of a flower, one knows the flower must be close, yet the flower can never exist in its own shadow. The shadow belongs to the flower, but does the flower belong to the shadow? Through this photographic exploration, I ask: what do we hold on to? Do all of our thoughts belong to us? Which thoughts define us, and which fade into absence?